Thank you. :) Please guys, let's not trigger the waterworks. It's bad enough that I had to drag my resisting self to FEU yesterday just to take that entrance exam. By the way, I passed. :P Anyway, It's not as if we're not going to see each other in Med school, right? Besides, come on guys, we can't be blockmates forever. Don't make this any harder for me than it already is. Let go of my memories. Our memories. I know that we can't control the sentimental side of our emotions but hey, let's just study hard and be the future doctors that we aspire to become. :)
You're irreplaceable guys, srsly. :) You're the first people that I met outside of my Paulinian life. The boys, especially, would always be remembered. My first guy classmates after 11 years of imprisonment in Saint Paul. :D Did you seriosuly think that I could just throw away three years worth of friendship? You have to know me better than that.
Probably a lot of you are wondering why. Here's the thing. I've lived 11 years of my life in Saint Paul and the sudden change of the environment seriously shocked me. I guess it just never crossed my mind that life without help from your blockmates is possible. Yes, I know that you help but it's really far from the help that I need. Or maybe I've just grown accustomed to being the one who helps, when I was still a Paulinian. Spare my airiness. But if that's not the right explanation to it, I don't know how to explain it anymore.
When I was with you guys, I was never at ease. Rude as it may sound, I find other sections- warmer towards me. And that's the reason why I always take every chance that I can get to transfer my subjects to other sections. It's not true that I am avoiding my home section, come on guys, how's that possible, right? Chances are, I get higher grades when I'm with other sections than when I am with you. The source of my indifference lies when that first failure of my life came during our freshmen days. None of you probably noticed but you're not as nice to irregular students, really. And I guess I can't blame you for that. School was hellbound for me, at that time. I abandoned all hope in trying to find help in you. Try putting yourselves in the position as that of the irregulars. Did you seriously think that they would have wanted to be like that? They would've given up anything just for the slightest twist of fate. SOME, I'm not generalizing, act as if their IQs are higher than those of the irregulars. Too airy, srsly.
Don't hate me if I don't talk to you or if I'm not as nice to you than how I am to the other members of the class. Look back. I am not someone who acts without reason. There's a high possibility that you've done something really unjustly to me from the past three years.
I really had no intention of doing this farewell thingy. I'm not really good with goodbyes. I was actually detaching myself from the people that I loved most in this section long before the end of this semester. I just didn't think that I could bear the pain if I leave and our bond's still as strong as ever. I'm unfair, right? Unfair as I am, I was never that successful. Not stepping foot in UST is bearable. But not being able to be as close to Amiel? From the thought itself, it's torture. She's a rare find and knowing that I never even got to hug her goodbye doubles the pain. I was hoping that you'd take care of her in my place, not that she needs it, though. She's pretty strong and courageous. Just be with her when she needs you.
Anyway, back to where we were before. My plan of just disappearing failed when I tweeted my passing to the entrance exam yesterday. Haha. Those who were following me knew already and I thought that it's time to let everyone know. :) Yes, you're one blockmate short again, next semester. I AM TRANSFERRING. Don't rejoice yet, though. I'll be back. See you in Med school at 2011. Yes, I transferred because I wanted to finish my studies on time. I can't afford to be delayed. We still have a lot of years of studying ahead of us. :) I just thought that I might be able to perform better when I get to change the environment.
Again, thank you. You've taught me something really crucial. You'll know who your real friends are when they can tell both negative and positive stuffs to your face without worrying about your reaction until after they've said it. Why? Because it'll take a lot of guilty points for a real friend to talk about you behind your back. :)
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I still loathe Biology with all my heart. Curse you, Biology. What I feel about Biology is beyond hatred, srsly. BUT, I badly want to be a doctor so I'd just deal with it. It's a pretty complicated emotion, seriously. But, I'd rather stick with what I hate than to take up Med Tech and puke all my way to Med school with the stool and urine samples. Gross, dude. See you soon guys! :) I'll visit, promise. :)
