My ass is seriously hurting. Seriously.
This is the downside of waiting in a hospital lobby. You get to punish your ass by doing nothing other than sitting. Yeah, it’s sad, but not that horrible if you get to see the miserable faces that are walking in the same lobby. It makes you feel ashamed being the complainer when everyone’s being so down. Misery, I have come to believe, is as contagious as the world’s most hated disease.
As I sit here alone, I stare at the busy people. Yes, the nurses try their best to smile, give out jokes to each other and everything. But the family members of the patients that they are accompanying are as sad as a lonely, dripping wet puppy. I think no one could feel as bad as them.
Once upon a time, I wanted to be a doctor, as well. I wonder how my life would’ve changed had I pursued that path. I know that one thing’s certain. I would’ve killed my social life, then. I’m not a super sociable person, but I’m not an anti-social, neither. I like to do whatever I want that’s why I’m often being tagged as unpredictable. There are times when I’d kill for a good night out BUT there are times as well when you cant even let me get off my bed.
I wonder if I would have been a little bit different then. Probably I would have been a little more serious with my life. Will I still end up with my boyfriend? Probably not. Being a doctor requires a lot of if responsibilities. A lot more than just saving other people’s lives. I wonder if I would have been able to fulfill all of those things. Again, I think not.
I even suck with just finishing up an old blog entry. How else could I save someone’s life in just a couple of hours? Nah-uh.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
OMOIDE.
I`m not a fan of random posts, really. My avid readers can attest to that. Mostly, I just create new blog entries because something really great happened. If not, something really terrible. Today, however, I decided that it`s a really nice day to create this random entry.
Why?
Because I want to create another memory with my boyfriend.
While he`s sleeping soundly beside me, I chose to use his MacBook to create this. I`m in such a hurry because I fear that he might wake up, what with the noise that that dog is creating outside and with my great ability to type with as much noise that I can muster up with. If he does wake up, it`s almost a guarantee that I can`t finish this. He`d definitely sit beside me.
Anyway, I just thought that I`d do a write up regarding his last visit here in the Philippines. Yes, for those who doesn`t it know yet, he doesn`t live here. He stays in Japan. For the most part of our relationship, he`s there. But I get to see him for about 2 weeks (1 month at the most) after 3-4 months. Not that bad, actually. There`s always Facebook, Yahoo Messenger and of course, Skype.
His last visit here is the longest for this year. He last came here last January but I had school then, so it wasn`t much fun. Since last March, however, I started working. I don`t know why but I find school more stressful than work. Probably because at work, I just have to do the same thing over and over again.
Our relationship`s not a step close to being perfect. Which relationship is, anyway? We`ve had our turn of having quite a bumpy ride in our relationship these past few months, actually. But, we stayed strong. I know that a great part of that mess was my fault but he never gave up on me. That`s why we`re off to our 20th monthsary a few days from now. And, I can never thank him enough for the things that he has done for me in his one month stay here.
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I wish I was strong enough to have finished this back then. Unfortunately, Ken stirred in bed. When I looked at him, I saw my space in bed and it called me. :( I fell asleep.
So now, after two months, I am going to finish this. :)
Going back, his last visit here was a blast. He spoils me, in a good way, of course. I feel guilty going out with him because he doesn't allow me to pay. I don't feel comfortable spending his hard earned money for my own satisfaction. Although, that's how it is for him. He'd rather pay than to have me pay even for just a candy. Sweet, right? That's how much he takes care of me when we're together.
We spent a month together. There wasn't a day when we never met. We've built more than a dozen new memories again. Memories that'll allow us to stay stronger than how we were for the last 20 months. :)
Why?
Because I want to create another memory with my boyfriend.
While he`s sleeping soundly beside me, I chose to use his MacBook to create this. I`m in such a hurry because I fear that he might wake up, what with the noise that that dog is creating outside and with my great ability to type with as much noise that I can muster up with. If he does wake up, it`s almost a guarantee that I can`t finish this. He`d definitely sit beside me.
Anyway, I just thought that I`d do a write up regarding his last visit here in the Philippines. Yes, for those who doesn`t it know yet, he doesn`t live here. He stays in Japan. For the most part of our relationship, he`s there. But I get to see him for about 2 weeks (1 month at the most) after 3-4 months. Not that bad, actually. There`s always Facebook, Yahoo Messenger and of course, Skype.
His last visit here is the longest for this year. He last came here last January but I had school then, so it wasn`t much fun. Since last March, however, I started working. I don`t know why but I find school more stressful than work. Probably because at work, I just have to do the same thing over and over again.
Our relationship`s not a step close to being perfect. Which relationship is, anyway? We`ve had our turn of having quite a bumpy ride in our relationship these past few months, actually. But, we stayed strong. I know that a great part of that mess was my fault but he never gave up on me. That`s why we`re off to our 20th monthsary a few days from now. And, I can never thank him enough for the things that he has done for me in his one month stay here.
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I wish I was strong enough to have finished this back then. Unfortunately, Ken stirred in bed. When I looked at him, I saw my space in bed and it called me. :( I fell asleep.
So now, after two months, I am going to finish this. :)
Going back, his last visit here was a blast. He spoils me, in a good way, of course. I feel guilty going out with him because he doesn't allow me to pay. I don't feel comfortable spending his hard earned money for my own satisfaction. Although, that's how it is for him. He'd rather pay than to have me pay even for just a candy. Sweet, right? That's how much he takes care of me when we're together.
We spent a month together. There wasn't a day when we never met. We've built more than a dozen new memories again. Memories that'll allow us to stay stronger than how we were for the last 20 months. :)
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Plagiarism 101.
I never knew that I’m that effective as a writer. LOL. I’m superbly flattered…. NOT.
I’ll keep this post available for public viewing so your enviously loser face would be able to read this. Thanks for being such a copy-cat. I’ve been experiencing a writer’s block for quite a while now. You’ve given me something to write about. :) I’m writing this because I can’t send a message to you directly. Funny how thieves like you have the guts to keep your profiles private when more than half of the things that are in your accounts were just stolen. No wonder our country’s such a mess.
Too much introduction, yeah, I know. I’ll go straight to the point.
Stop being such a sorry loser.
That felt great. I would’ve said that straight to your face if I knew you in person. Unfortunately, I don’t. And don’t give me that old excuse of me judging you when I haven’t even met you yet. We both know that first impressions are too strong for that. And, honestly, a thief like you doesn’t deserve REAL friends. I pity yours, that is, if you have some.
For those who are reading this (Yeah, I know you are reading this. ;P), just so you know, I’m speaking with a certain someone named Maria Gnvl Romero Lizardo (Geni) through Facebook (Yeah, I know we’re in Facebook right now. This isn’t my only site. I’ve posted this to all of my accounts. Different sites, different followers/friends, you know. :P ).
What did she do to deserve this?
Simple.
She did the most unforgivable thing that someone can do to a writer. She stole my lines. You dirty plagiarist.
I bet she doesn’t know how important their works are for writers. Though writers don’t have to whack their brains out often for new stuff to write down, since those things come naturally, they’re still wasting half of their lives sitting on a desk, making good stories to inspire people. Then, of course, thieves would come to take the credit. HOW ANNOYING IS THAT? That’s just unfair.
Will it kill you to quote me? I don’t think so.
So now, the fun part. I don’t want people to think that I’m making this up. I bet you’ve already told half a dozen people by now that you thought of those lines by yourself. A likely story. Hee-hee.
Evidence #1. (Click image to enlarge.)
Your Facebook account. Oh, wait. What does your Bio say? Those lines are VERY familiar. :P
Evidence #2. (Click image to enlarge.)
A screen shot of my Friendster’s About Me part where I originally posted the entry. I highlighted the lines that you stole. I appreciate your effort in changing the part about the lizards. However, what? you’re scared of dogs? That’s so lame. I am a huge fan of dogs. If you’re going to say “So what?”, let me answer you by saying this: You’re my fan, right? Ha-ha. I’m giving out free info about myself. You should be ecstatic by now. :P
P.S. If you’re doubting the authenticity of my screenshot, check out the URL part. friendster.com/girlyragdoll. I’m the only girlyragdoll in this world. Google it.
Evidence #3. (Click image to enlarge.)
A screenshot of my Multiply’s Blog part. :) It has a timestamp there in case you wonder when I created the blog. I bet you weren’t even aware that Facebook exists by then. :P Hee-hee.
So, there. I actually wanted to say more but I don’t want to waste more of my time with this. No matter what I do, anyway, I don’t think I’ll be able to change the minds of the people who are reading this already. I think they’ve already seen enough.
So next time you think of stealing my lines again, please think twice, little miss plagiarist. It wouldn’t make you less of a person if you admit your mistake, y’know. Just saying. :)
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Back to 2000.
Not to brag, but I got my new laptop yesterday so I'm in the mood to create new blog entries. :3
Anyway, so, yes. I was thinking of posting something really random. I'd probably write something about my latest pastime then... RAGNAROK.
Yessss. The game which rendered almost half of the students in our country without enough money for their other needs way back in 2000-ish. :) I just woke up a few days ago and realized that I am damn missing that game. So, what else did you think I did? Of course I downloaded an online server. :3
With me is my boyfriend, of course, and my brother. It's not as fancy as the real RO (though it's real as well) since there are fewer people there. But as far as I know, it's five times faster to level up there. So, by almost a week (or less), I am in level 40 already. Yeah, I know that it's not much. But I have work in the morning, hello? Did you expect me to play all day like all of our country-famous bums? Hell, no.
Since I missed my character so much, back in the Chaos server, for those who are familiar with the game, I decided to create an archer as well. I chose the same hair style and sponsored the same red hair color as well. Whattt? I've always wanted to be a redhead. Heehee.
I've got really sensitive fingers, though. :| I can't stand playing for long hours so I only play when my boyfriend's in the mood to play, as well. By then, at least I've got someone to play with. And honestly, he's worth staying in the game for. :3
I'm planning to have my archer leveled up to become a dancer. Another character that I used to have way back in the Iris server. :3 I'm darn excited to see that sexy walk again. :3
Anyway, so, yes. I was thinking of posting something really random. I'd probably write something about my latest pastime then... RAGNAROK.
Yessss. The game which rendered almost half of the students in our country without enough money for their other needs way back in 2000-ish. :) I just woke up a few days ago and realized that I am damn missing that game. So, what else did you think I did? Of course I downloaded an online server. :3
With me is my boyfriend, of course, and my brother. It's not as fancy as the real RO (though it's real as well) since there are fewer people there. But as far as I know, it's five times faster to level up there. So, by almost a week (or less), I am in level 40 already. Yeah, I know that it's not much. But I have work in the morning, hello? Did you expect me to play all day like all of our country-famous bums? Hell, no.
Since I missed my character so much, back in the Chaos server, for those who are familiar with the game, I decided to create an archer as well. I chose the same hair style and sponsored the same red hair color as well. Whattt? I've always wanted to be a redhead. Heehee.
I've got really sensitive fingers, though. :| I can't stand playing for long hours so I only play when my boyfriend's in the mood to play, as well. By then, at least I've got someone to play with. And honestly, he's worth staying in the game for. :3
I'm planning to have my archer leveled up to become a dancer. Another character that I used to have way back in the Iris server. :3 I'm darn excited to see that sexy walk again. :3
Monday, November 15, 2010
I wouldn't lose you, would I?
SSL ERROR.
What happened to the SSL certificates of most Google sites? :| Since it's my rest day, I decided to log into this blogger account of mine just to edit the layout since I noticed that the sixth link which is my Friendster account is actually not click-able. However, it took me more than five tries before I got the trick as to how I can successfully log in.
The error message? Yes. SSL Certificate Error.
I did the basic troubleshooting, of course. I actually thought that it's my computer, if not my browser's, fault as to why this is happening. However, I've checked the SSL settings of my browser, I've tried two other browsers and it's still presenting me with the same error message. So what I did was I tried to search for it online (I know, why haven't I thought about it in the first place, huh?) and I found out that a lot of people have been getting the same error message lately. :( Boo for that.
So as of this moment, the only way as to how I can successfully log in to this site is to interrupt the loading of the page itself. Yes, once you can see the Google log in box, click on the 'Stop Loading this page' button if you're using Firefox or Google Chrome. From there, you have to type in your user name and password and you can press enter. It'll give you the SSL warning again. I just clicked on allow SSL Certificate, no big deal for me. Then I was able to see my dashboard. Not so neat, actually. But it's better than to stare at your Blogger page without actually being able to edit or add anything.
I think I'd be sick.
Technical stuff. I know I work as a Technical Support Representative but seriously, I have no plans whatsoever of being a part of the Geek Squad. It just really bothered me when that error message appeared.
My Blogger site, I wouldn't lose you, would I? You know that you have all of my entries. :(
Don't let me down.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Ten Days.
Creating a blog entry after work: My most effective stress-reliever.
I saw this 10-day challenge online and I wanted to try it. Although since I don't get to create entries as much as how I do before, I decided to do everything in one go instead of doing it day by day. :)
Here it goes:
1. Day ONE: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
a. We're fighting hell of a lot lately but I still can't stop caring for you. You know how we are. You move, I move. It's as if we're inseparable.
b. I am getting seriously attached to you. If you keep on being nice, what do you expect me to do? I will hurt myself by hurting you.
c. Shut your mouth. If your tongue's itching to speak, just take in calls. Essence of working in a call center.
d. I really cared for you as a sister. We never really had the most real friendship but I treasured it. I miss you.
e. Srsly, thank you.
f. I never really lived up to your expectations but I believe I never turned you down as badly as how I imagined I would. I know you're proud of me. I am proud of you, too. I love you.
g. He's using you. Open your eyes, please.
h. You're one of the kindest person I know. Don't change.
j. Learn how to let go. You can love two people at the same time, at different degrees but you can't keep them both at the same time.
2. Day TWO: Nine things about yourself.
a. I suffer from Herpetophobia. The worst thing that you can do to me is to have a lizard near me.
b. I am an eating machine when I want to. When I am not in the mood, though, I can go on without eating for a day.
c. I love animals more than I love people. That's the reason why I chose medical school over veterinary school. I can't handle a dying animal. My hands are going to be all shaky and I might cry more than the owner.
d. I know how to play the guitar. I am a bassist. I'm not good. I just know how to.
e. I laugh a lot. Even when everyone's over a joke, I still laugh my ass off.
f. I am boyish and girl-y in one. I wear cosmetics but I adore sweats, jeans and sneakers.
g. I am moody. Whaaaat? I am a girl. Deal with it.
h. Never argue with me. I won't stop till I win.
i. You can talk about me behind my back. Just don't let me catch you.
3. Day THREE : Eight ways to win your heart.
a. Be the perfect gentleman. I always say that I don't want those mushy stuff but when they happen, they melt my heart. I may not look happy but believe me, I'm just too shy to show it.
b. Talk to me first.
c. Let me make my own decisions but guide me to whatever is right, nonetheless.
d. If I sound too eager over something, don't contradict me.
e. Try to go with my mood swings. I know they're hell to deal with but that's how girls are, anyway. I'd appreciate it when you work on it with me.
f. Never force me to do anything I don't want to.
g. Never curse in front of me and scold me when I curse.
h. Don't let me cry in front of you.
4. Day FOUR: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
a. What will happen tomorrow?
b. Why do pets have to die really early?
c. Food.
d. What shall I do?
e. What went wrong?
f. Where do I go from here?
g. Sleep.
5. Day FIVE: Six things you wish you've never done.
a. Quit school for a semester.
b. Started drinking. Occasional or not, I wish I never learned how to drink.
c. Took Biology. Believe me, unless you really love that field, you wouldn't want to take that as your major.
d. Eat meat. Wish I grew up as a vegetarian.
e. Learn how to curse.
f. Date bad boys.
6. Day SIX : Five people who mean a lot to you.
a. mom
b. brother
c. boyfriend
d. best friend
e. you
7. Day SEVEN : Four turn- offs.
a. Smelly guys. I understand that you sweat a lot more than girls do but hygiene is important.
b. Creating unnecessary noise when eating. Gross.
c. Gossipers.
d. Jerks.
8. Day EIGHT : Three turn- ons.
a. Braces
b. If you have the strong yet pleasant smell of a man's perfume, you can definitely catch my attention.
c. Having the courage to change things that you can.
9. Day NINE: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
a. :))
b. :((
Life's like that always, anyway. Very unpredictable.
10. Day TEN : One confession.
a. I can never be a barbie doll no matter how you dress me up. At the end of the day, no matter how badly you want to change me, I'd still have my own style, my own thinking and my uniqueness. I'd always be a girlyragdoll. Make up on, ragged clothes on.
I saw this 10-day challenge online and I wanted to try it. Although since I don't get to create entries as much as how I do before, I decided to do everything in one go instead of doing it day by day. :)
Here it goes:
1. Day ONE: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
a. We're fighting hell of a lot lately but I still can't stop caring for you. You know how we are. You move, I move. It's as if we're inseparable.
b. I am getting seriously attached to you. If you keep on being nice, what do you expect me to do? I will hurt myself by hurting you.
c. Shut your mouth. If your tongue's itching to speak, just take in calls. Essence of working in a call center.
d. I really cared for you as a sister. We never really had the most real friendship but I treasured it. I miss you.
e. Srsly, thank you.
f. I never really lived up to your expectations but I believe I never turned you down as badly as how I imagined I would. I know you're proud of me. I am proud of you, too. I love you.
g. He's using you. Open your eyes, please.
h. You're one of the kindest person I know. Don't change.
j. Learn how to let go. You can love two people at the same time, at different degrees but you can't keep them both at the same time.
2. Day TWO: Nine things about yourself.
a. I suffer from Herpetophobia. The worst thing that you can do to me is to have a lizard near me.
b. I am an eating machine when I want to. When I am not in the mood, though, I can go on without eating for a day.
c. I love animals more than I love people. That's the reason why I chose medical school over veterinary school. I can't handle a dying animal. My hands are going to be all shaky and I might cry more than the owner.
d. I know how to play the guitar. I am a bassist. I'm not good. I just know how to.
e. I laugh a lot. Even when everyone's over a joke, I still laugh my ass off.
f. I am boyish and girl-y in one. I wear cosmetics but I adore sweats, jeans and sneakers.
g. I am moody. Whaaaat? I am a girl. Deal with it.
h. Never argue with me. I won't stop till I win.
i. You can talk about me behind my back. Just don't let me catch you.
3. Day THREE : Eight ways to win your heart.
a. Be the perfect gentleman. I always say that I don't want those mushy stuff but when they happen, they melt my heart. I may not look happy but believe me, I'm just too shy to show it.
b. Talk to me first.
c. Let me make my own decisions but guide me to whatever is right, nonetheless.
d. If I sound too eager over something, don't contradict me.
e. Try to go with my mood swings. I know they're hell to deal with but that's how girls are, anyway. I'd appreciate it when you work on it with me.
f. Never force me to do anything I don't want to.
g. Never curse in front of me and scold me when I curse.
h. Don't let me cry in front of you.
4. Day FOUR: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
a. What will happen tomorrow?
b. Why do pets have to die really early?
c. Food.
d. What shall I do?
e. What went wrong?
f. Where do I go from here?
g. Sleep.
5. Day FIVE: Six things you wish you've never done.
a. Quit school for a semester.
b. Started drinking. Occasional or not, I wish I never learned how to drink.
c. Took Biology. Believe me, unless you really love that field, you wouldn't want to take that as your major.
d. Eat meat. Wish I grew up as a vegetarian.
e. Learn how to curse.
f. Date bad boys.
6. Day SIX : Five people who mean a lot to you.
a. mom
b. brother
c. boyfriend
d. best friend
e. you
7. Day SEVEN : Four turn- offs.
a. Smelly guys. I understand that you sweat a lot more than girls do but hygiene is important.
b. Creating unnecessary noise when eating. Gross.
c. Gossipers.
d. Jerks.
8. Day EIGHT : Three turn- ons.
a. Braces
b. If you have the strong yet pleasant smell of a man's perfume, you can definitely catch my attention.
c. Having the courage to change things that you can.
9. Day NINE: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
a. :))
b. :((
Life's like that always, anyway. Very unpredictable.
10. Day TEN : One confession.
a. I can never be a barbie doll no matter how you dress me up. At the end of the day, no matter how badly you want to change me, I'd still have my own style, my own thinking and my uniqueness. I'd always be a girlyragdoll. Make up on, ragged clothes on.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Never kiss ass for people to like you.
Righhhht. It seems as if it's 'in' to talk about the controversial Mendoza hostage- taking. I'm going to go with the flow as well, then.
I'm a very prideful person. I bet everyone can attest to that. However, I highly think that I use my pride only when I think it's highly needed. With an issue like this, actually, I don't expect Filipinos to hate the Hong kong government for tagging our country as a dangerous one, what with the outcome of that hostage-taking was. What I didn't expect is for my countrymen to downgrade themselves all out just for that one controversy. I understand fully that the event took place in our country and that definitely, we are partly to be blamed for not securing the area as much as how they expected us to. However, they can't ask us to expect crimes as big as that all the time, right? We can't go around running all scared everyday, fearing that someone might just go crazy while crossing the street or something.
The day after that event took place, I was browsing my friends' posts over Facebook and- voila! All of their posts are about the Mendoza hostage - taking. I wouldn't have said anything if it wasn't so annoying, seriously. I've got better things to do than to debate over that issue. I managed to almost end the day with my mouth shut and my hands doing nothing but move around the track pad, trying to control the pointer in different directions till I came across stupid posts. There are pictures of policemen playing arcade games in their uniforms, posts saying that Mendoza is such an asshole for doing such a thing, and of course, fan pages about the incident with names like ' Hong kong, we are so sorry :( '. I was like- whatttttt???
I'm not saying that we shouldn't be sorry at all. I feel bad for the victims as much as everyone does. It's just that, will it kill you to stop downgrading yourselves as Filipinos just because an event like that happened? Did the Americans downgraded themselves when the September 11 event happened? I don't think so. They mourned over the people who died, yes, but they didn't go around apologizing like poor puppies to everyone. They proved to the world that they are still as firm as ever and that one single mistake wouldn't shake their strong profile. Just so you know, I am not a pro-American myself so I am not saying this because I am some big fan of them.
Some points that I want to argue with you, my dear countrymen:
1. Policemen playing arcade games. Whaaaaat? Haven't you played in TimeZone or any other places like that in your uniforms before? How can you make such an issue regarding people who just wanted to spend some time off what with all of the pressures of being a policeman are? Just because there are pictures like that, does that sum up all of the things that they can do? If so, then there wouldn't be any criminals at all in our country, correct? Then for students, once you've failed a test, if your parents saw any pictures of you playing arcade games in your uniform, they have all the rights in the world to blame it on that. Great thinking.
2. Mendoza is such an asshole for doing such a thing. Maybe you are assholes for saying things that none of you understand at all. Ever read anything about him before judging him? I bet 90% of the people who claims that he's such a stupid man never even thought of researching as to why the guy did that. Yes, around 99.99% of the whole country knows that he used to be an ex-policeman and that he wants to be reinstated. Yes, he used to be one of our best policemen until his name was dragged into a terrible case. I can neither prove that that wasn't true as much as I can say that I know him personally. However, I came to read some articles in the morning paper and it was told that the guy who filed a case against him and his colleagues didn't even come to the hearing. Not once. YET, they still removed him from the team and they even removed his retirement privileges. Try working your ass off for a company and make them proud by receiving awards then have yourself unjustly removed, see if that doesn't change you.
3. Use fan pages to apologize like idiots to Hong kong. Yes, being sorry is nice BUT do not overdo it, please. Stop saying sorry then blame the police again. Just say sorry. It doesn't look cool to blame everything to our SWAT team. They did their best. Given the chance, I'm sure they would've done better. But, their lives were on the line as well that time. Have you ever thought about having a father or a brother as a policeman? Would you have wanted them to go barging in that bus when they know really well that they're too nervous to do it perfectly? That'd be like running into a burning house naked. Simply idiotic, right?
In the first place, we NEVER dragged those Chinese people in our country. Needless to say, whatever issues we have in our country, that came with the ticket that they bought prior to coming here. They came, anyway. So how can you take it so heavily? How can you criticize your own country's SWAT team when you probably don't even follow the simplest traffic rules? Everyone has their own share of faults in this event. No one should be blamed much more than the others. If you think that it's the SWAT team's fault, why not apply as a trainer for them, then? Better yet, you probably should've arrested Mendoza yourself when the event was being shown in TV.
Don't think that it's as easy as how it seems while you were watching it. Everything looks a hundred times better in television. That's the main reason why I don't watch television shows often. It does things to your way of thinking.
I'm a very prideful person. I bet everyone can attest to that. However, I highly think that I use my pride only when I think it's highly needed. With an issue like this, actually, I don't expect Filipinos to hate the Hong kong government for tagging our country as a dangerous one, what with the outcome of that hostage-taking was. What I didn't expect is for my countrymen to downgrade themselves all out just for that one controversy. I understand fully that the event took place in our country and that definitely, we are partly to be blamed for not securing the area as much as how they expected us to. However, they can't ask us to expect crimes as big as that all the time, right? We can't go around running all scared everyday, fearing that someone might just go crazy while crossing the street or something.
The day after that event took place, I was browsing my friends' posts over Facebook and- voila! All of their posts are about the Mendoza hostage - taking. I wouldn't have said anything if it wasn't so annoying, seriously. I've got better things to do than to debate over that issue. I managed to almost end the day with my mouth shut and my hands doing nothing but move around the track pad, trying to control the pointer in different directions till I came across stupid posts. There are pictures of policemen playing arcade games in their uniforms, posts saying that Mendoza is such an asshole for doing such a thing, and of course, fan pages about the incident with names like ' Hong kong, we are so sorry :( '. I was like- whatttttt???
I'm not saying that we shouldn't be sorry at all. I feel bad for the victims as much as everyone does. It's just that, will it kill you to stop downgrading yourselves as Filipinos just because an event like that happened? Did the Americans downgraded themselves when the September 11 event happened? I don't think so. They mourned over the people who died, yes, but they didn't go around apologizing like poor puppies to everyone. They proved to the world that they are still as firm as ever and that one single mistake wouldn't shake their strong profile. Just so you know, I am not a pro-American myself so I am not saying this because I am some big fan of them.
Some points that I want to argue with you, my dear countrymen:
1. Policemen playing arcade games. Whaaaaat? Haven't you played in TimeZone or any other places like that in your uniforms before? How can you make such an issue regarding people who just wanted to spend some time off what with all of the pressures of being a policeman are? Just because there are pictures like that, does that sum up all of the things that they can do? If so, then there wouldn't be any criminals at all in our country, correct? Then for students, once you've failed a test, if your parents saw any pictures of you playing arcade games in your uniform, they have all the rights in the world to blame it on that. Great thinking.
2. Mendoza is such an asshole for doing such a thing. Maybe you are assholes for saying things that none of you understand at all. Ever read anything about him before judging him? I bet 90% of the people who claims that he's such a stupid man never even thought of researching as to why the guy did that. Yes, around 99.99% of the whole country knows that he used to be an ex-policeman and that he wants to be reinstated. Yes, he used to be one of our best policemen until his name was dragged into a terrible case. I can neither prove that that wasn't true as much as I can say that I know him personally. However, I came to read some articles in the morning paper and it was told that the guy who filed a case against him and his colleagues didn't even come to the hearing. Not once. YET, they still removed him from the team and they even removed his retirement privileges. Try working your ass off for a company and make them proud by receiving awards then have yourself unjustly removed, see if that doesn't change you.
3. Use fan pages to apologize like idiots to Hong kong. Yes, being sorry is nice BUT do not overdo it, please. Stop saying sorry then blame the police again. Just say sorry. It doesn't look cool to blame everything to our SWAT team. They did their best. Given the chance, I'm sure they would've done better. But, their lives were on the line as well that time. Have you ever thought about having a father or a brother as a policeman? Would you have wanted them to go barging in that bus when they know really well that they're too nervous to do it perfectly? That'd be like running into a burning house naked. Simply idiotic, right?
In the first place, we NEVER dragged those Chinese people in our country. Needless to say, whatever issues we have in our country, that came with the ticket that they bought prior to coming here. They came, anyway. So how can you take it so heavily? How can you criticize your own country's SWAT team when you probably don't even follow the simplest traffic rules? Everyone has their own share of faults in this event. No one should be blamed much more than the others. If you think that it's the SWAT team's fault, why not apply as a trainer for them, then? Better yet, you probably should've arrested Mendoza yourself when the event was being shown in TV.
Don't think that it's as easy as how it seems while you were watching it. Everything looks a hundred times better in television. That's the main reason why I don't watch television shows often. It does things to your way of thinking.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Warp Zone
I woke up today feeling strange. It took me a while to realize why I was feeling all miserable. Then, slowly, it came to me. It struck me as surely as how a lightning sets it target on an unknowing tree.
I felt as if I were on a time machine. The way the flashbacks came, it was as if I'd die on the spot had they been played a little slower. Everything came in blurred. But every blurred image came in with its meaning, presenting itself upright to my face. All I could think about all the time that I was on this hellish time-ride was that I'm not ready for this. I desperately wanted to stop, to change things as I pass by those events. But, I can't. I wish that I was at least warned. I could've bought a pacemaker to at least have my heart ready.
We all know that life's never fair.
So now I sit here alone, with the electricity out because of the storm, contributing to my misery, thinking. Where do I go from here? I'm more lost than the puppies out on the streets. At least, in their minds, they have one goal: 'Find master, serve for him, protect him.' In my case, however, I really have nowhere to go. I'm stuck in this void world with my two greatest nemesis. If's and but's.
What if...
But he said...
If only...
But we promised...
Deep down in my heart, the sound of a brutally sarcastic laugh echoes. It's presenting its own opinion on the crisis that I am in right now. It voices out the only thing that's occupying my mind as of the moment. Something that my mouth can't put into words : I told you so. I told you not to believe.
And here's where the question of where I'd be from this pops up again. Everything comes up again and I'd have to undergo the same hurtful process. It's like choosing the easier way out but ending up having to headbutt your way out instead because you ran into a dead-end.
The funny part is, I am not crying. They always say that in cases like this, breaking down in tears is the surest way to a quick recovery. I wonder if that's the reason why I'm neither feeling that bad nor am I feeling the slightest bit okay.
Out of this whole dilemma, I came to realize something. Oftentimes, we get so distracted by the busy lives of people around us that we tend to be side-tracked from our real goals. I found out that its okay to go on a different path as long as you'd still keep in mind your real goal. Nothing's wrong with being distracted once in a while because these little things help us grow. We just have to remember not to be pulled downwards by those little things because at the end of the day, its still your goals that matter.
I felt as if I were on a time machine. The way the flashbacks came, it was as if I'd die on the spot had they been played a little slower. Everything came in blurred. But every blurred image came in with its meaning, presenting itself upright to my face. All I could think about all the time that I was on this hellish time-ride was that I'm not ready for this. I desperately wanted to stop, to change things as I pass by those events. But, I can't. I wish that I was at least warned. I could've bought a pacemaker to at least have my heart ready.
We all know that life's never fair.
So now I sit here alone, with the electricity out because of the storm, contributing to my misery, thinking. Where do I go from here? I'm more lost than the puppies out on the streets. At least, in their minds, they have one goal: 'Find master, serve for him, protect him.' In my case, however, I really have nowhere to go. I'm stuck in this void world with my two greatest nemesis. If's and but's.
What if...
But he said...
If only...
But we promised...
Deep down in my heart, the sound of a brutally sarcastic laugh echoes. It's presenting its own opinion on the crisis that I am in right now. It voices out the only thing that's occupying my mind as of the moment. Something that my mouth can't put into words : I told you so. I told you not to believe.
And here's where the question of where I'd be from this pops up again. Everything comes up again and I'd have to undergo the same hurtful process. It's like choosing the easier way out but ending up having to headbutt your way out instead because you ran into a dead-end.
The funny part is, I am not crying. They always say that in cases like this, breaking down in tears is the surest way to a quick recovery. I wonder if that's the reason why I'm neither feeling that bad nor am I feeling the slightest bit okay.
Out of this whole dilemma, I came to realize something. Oftentimes, we get so distracted by the busy lives of people around us that we tend to be side-tracked from our real goals. I found out that its okay to go on a different path as long as you'd still keep in mind your real goal. Nothing's wrong with being distracted once in a while because these little things help us grow. We just have to remember not to be pulled downwards by those little things because at the end of the day, its still your goals that matter.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Updated Facebook About Me.
My name is Jessica, just like the thousands of girls out there. I don't hate it, of course. But I'm not 'that' into it, either. If you've entered a class before and someone calls your name but 3 different people looked (excluding you), you'd know what I mean.
I was born under the Astrological sign of Pisces and it was told that we were supposed to be imaginative. That- I highly agree upon. When I'm not running, which, by the way is one of my passions in life, my imagination takes over as a sub and finishes the lap without panting or stopping in midway. My imagination just runs freely. No boundaries, no limits.
Don't try to understand me because I am very unpredictable. I'm not planning to be on the safe side all my life. I like stepping into the unknown and indulging myself with all of the new challenges on the path that I've ended up with. That way, when I've finally reached the end line, I'd proudly move on knowing that I had survived that previous one with my own thinking, courage and self- confidence.
I've always wanted to be a writer but I ended up as a technical support representative and I am now spending 8 hours of my life, 5 days a week with non- stop technical blah blah blahs. I really like to draw but I ended up loving guitars more than pastels. I wear cosmetics but sweats, pants and sneakers are what I prefer to wear most.
Yes, I am weird that way for most people. But for me, that's what's drawing the fine line between the Jessica Diane that I am, and all the other Jessicas in the world. That's me being myself- being unique. So if you're going to ask me "Why be like that?", let me ask you something in return:
Why not like this?
Love note to whoever reads this:
HEYYYYYY!Stalkers stalk. They don't go around telling the one they're following that they are stalking them. Uhm, yeah, that was confusing. Bottom line is: I don't add people whom I've never even met in real life. A few exceptions, of course. Those whom I've added long before I decided to stop accepting others. So if you want to add me, sorry. Srsly, I'm sorry. You can catch more of me on my blogger site, though. Or other websites of mine. My screen name's pretty searchable through Google, y'know. *wink*
I was born under the Astrological sign of Pisces and it was told that we were supposed to be imaginative. That- I highly agree upon. When I'm not running, which, by the way is one of my passions in life, my imagination takes over as a sub and finishes the lap without panting or stopping in midway. My imagination just runs freely. No boundaries, no limits.
Don't try to understand me because I am very unpredictable. I'm not planning to be on the safe side all my life. I like stepping into the unknown and indulging myself with all of the new challenges on the path that I've ended up with. That way, when I've finally reached the end line, I'd proudly move on knowing that I had survived that previous one with my own thinking, courage and self- confidence.
I've always wanted to be a writer but I ended up as a technical support representative and I am now spending 8 hours of my life, 5 days a week with non- stop technical blah blah blahs. I really like to draw but I ended up loving guitars more than pastels. I wear cosmetics but sweats, pants and sneakers are what I prefer to wear most.
Yes, I am weird that way for most people. But for me, that's what's drawing the fine line between the Jessica Diane that I am, and all the other Jessicas in the world. That's me being myself- being unique. So if you're going to ask me "Why be like that?", let me ask you something in return:
Why not like this?
Love note to whoever reads this:
HEYYYYYY!Stalkers stalk. They don't go around telling the one they're following that they are stalking them. Uhm, yeah, that was confusing. Bottom line is: I don't add people whom I've never even met in real life. A few exceptions, of course. Those whom I've added long before I decided to stop accepting others. So if you want to add me, sorry. Srsly, I'm sorry. You can catch more of me on my blogger site, though. Or other websites of mine. My screen name's pretty searchable through Google, y'know. *wink*
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Share it. Don't keep it.
Everytime that I wasn't able to compose new blog entries for months, I almost always start it off with 'Lately I had been idle.' This line has become very used that I thought that having it as my introduction would really be a fat chance. Well, what the hell? I managed to start it off with that line, too, since I already mentioned it.
Everytime that I compose new blog entries, its already given that I wrote it because something happened. I don't usually compose new ones just because an idea popped up on my mind. It must be a very big change for those who are reading this now since this is already the second paragraph and I haven't even explained the real reason behind this post.
Why?
Simply because I wrote this just to explain my sudden idleness as a writer. Well, simply put, I had the misfortune of having to experience a writer's block. It even came to a point when I was so sure that I won't be able to write again. What inspired me to come back to composing new entries was when my boyfriend told me that I'm the first girl who ever made him a blog. Upon hearing that, I thought to myself: "What the heck. Writer's block or not, I can still make new entries simply because I'm a writer. Writing is one of
my passions so if I stop now, I would've just thrown away four years worth of a dream. "
So now, I am back. My next entries might not be as good as my previous ones but I believe that it'll be good in no time. It's just like using an old typewriter after having it kept in the attic for years. The keys are going to be impossibly hard to press but use it everyday and it'll be as good as new soon.
I consider myself lucky for having writing as one of my talents. Not everyone's having the time of their lives composing new entries. Some find it rather difficult, if not boring. I just realized that it's such a shame to throw this away when some people are doing their best to compose a single entry. Talents, after all, are supposed to be enhanced and shared- not thrown away. :)
Everytime that I compose new blog entries, its already given that I wrote it because something happened. I don't usually compose new ones just because an idea popped up on my mind. It must be a very big change for those who are reading this now since this is already the second paragraph and I haven't even explained the real reason behind this post.
Why?
Simply because I wrote this just to explain my sudden idleness as a writer. Well, simply put, I had the misfortune of having to experience a writer's block. It even came to a point when I was so sure that I won't be able to write again. What inspired me to come back to composing new entries was when my boyfriend told me that I'm the first girl who ever made him a blog. Upon hearing that, I thought to myself: "What the heck. Writer's block or not, I can still make new entries simply because I'm a writer. Writing is one of
my passions so if I stop now, I would've just thrown away four years worth of a dream. "
So now, I am back. My next entries might not be as good as my previous ones but I believe that it'll be good in no time. It's just like using an old typewriter after having it kept in the attic for years. The keys are going to be impossibly hard to press but use it everyday and it'll be as good as new soon.
I consider myself lucky for having writing as one of my talents. Not everyone's having the time of their lives composing new entries. Some find it rather difficult, if not boring. I just realized that it's such a shame to throw this away when some people are doing their best to compose a single entry. Talents, after all, are supposed to be enhanced and shared- not thrown away. :)
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Picture- grabber.
Last week, I found out that one of my pics from Facebook has been grabbed and placed in a thread from a psp site. The thread’s topic is BABE THREAD 4. Haha. I know I’m supposed to be pissed what with my picture being feasted upon by maniacs on that site but I can’t help but laugh it off a few minutes after I found out.
Srsly, I am not pretty to be placed in an effin' hot spot like that. Am I not allowed to upload my solo pictures nowadays? I am one of those ordinary girls that you get to pass by for the best part of everyday. My looks doesn't stand out so please, let me live my life, guys. I am no different from your sisters (If your sister is ordinary, that is), and I’m pretty sure that given the chance, you wouldn't want your sister’s pictures to be feasted upon on some crazy babe thread like that.
If you can’t do as much as to respect my boyfriend, I am urging you to please leave even just the tiniest respect to me. You’d probably reason out that I should take it as a compliment being posted in a thread like that, where guys post pictures of girls who they think are pretty, not to mention that it was an admin of that thread who posted my picture, but c’mon, I don’t find it the slightest bit flattering.
I hope you wouldn’t take it against me if I don’t find comfort in being talked about: good or bad things. If I can’t do as much as to upload my pictures without you guys placing it on babe threads like that, I don’t think I’m going to enjoy much more of this cyberife.
As of now, I stopped accepting friend requests from Facebook. I only accept people that I know and the ones whom I don't know who had been on my list for years now, I did them a favor by not deleting them. However, I filtered them out in such a way that no private posts of mine shall be revealed to them. Yes, you can say that I am overreacting over this certain situation BUT, here's my side: Yes, for now it's just a pretty harmless forum, where guys talk about girls that they think are pretty however, if it so happened that it was a porn site, what am I supposed to do? I am just being careful now.
As for the girls out there, unless you want your pics to be posted on sites such as those, too, I strongly suggest that you don't add up people whom you don't know personally.
Monday, February 08, 2010
Ultimate Fail.
Last year, around the first week of Decemeber, my Acer laptop's camera and charger broke down already. It hasn't been a year old so I decided to take it back to PC Corner Gilmore branch (It's in Quezon City, for those who doesn't know where that is.) to have it repaired since it's still under the warranty time given by Acer. Little did I know that by having it repaired, I fear that I might not be able to see my laptop again.
Being in a long distance relationship, you can take all of my gadgets but my laptop. Without it, there's no way that my boyfriend and I can talk to each other so laptop is really of it's essence to me. I took my laptop to PC Corner on December 18, 2009. They ASSURED me that I can have it back after 2 to 3 weeks. After 2 weeks, I didn't call since it was around Christmas break and I was thinking that chances are high that it still wasn't done yet. After 3 weeks, January 2, 2010, I decided to call them. No one answered the phone and again, I thought that they're still on their holiday vacation. I called the next day just to be told that the battery pack isn't there yet but the unit was already delivered. They asked me to call again 3 days after that. After 3 days, I called again and was told the same thing. THEY EVEN ASKED ME IF THEY CAN REFORMAT THE UNIT AS TO CHECK IF THE CAMERA IS WORKING ALREADY. I said yes.
That went on and on until today, February 9, 2010. Last Saturday, my mom called them and asked if it was ready for pick-up already. They said that the battery pack came already and to my surprise, THEY ASKED MY MOM IF THEY CAN REFORMAT IT. Liars. That's what they are. They keep on procrastinating. Haven't they asked me already if they can format it a few weeks back? Obviously, since the one who asked me and the one who talked to my mom were two different people, one of them are lying.
According to them, it was the suppliers fault. (The supplier being Acer, I take it, since my laptop's brand is Acer.) However, I don't really believe that Acer would put their credibility at stake just for one laptop, right? PC corner offered me to take one of their laptops first while I am waiting for mine and that gave me a really bad feeling. It came to my mind that they probably lost my laptop and they just didn't want to say since it'll surely ruin their company's name.
My boyfriend's leaving on Wednesday and I still don't have anything to use. Our desktop's monitor broke down a few weeks ago and I am only borrowing my brother's laptop. I am thinking of getting the laptop that PC Corner was offering me just so I'll have something to use. I am hoping that once I take hold of their laptop, they'd be honest enough to let me know if they really did lose my laptop. It's not very nice for ANY company to lie to their costumers, after all.
Being in a long distance relationship, you can take all of my gadgets but my laptop. Without it, there's no way that my boyfriend and I can talk to each other so laptop is really of it's essence to me. I took my laptop to PC Corner on December 18, 2009. They ASSURED me that I can have it back after 2 to 3 weeks. After 2 weeks, I didn't call since it was around Christmas break and I was thinking that chances are high that it still wasn't done yet. After 3 weeks, January 2, 2010, I decided to call them. No one answered the phone and again, I thought that they're still on their holiday vacation. I called the next day just to be told that the battery pack isn't there yet but the unit was already delivered. They asked me to call again 3 days after that. After 3 days, I called again and was told the same thing. THEY EVEN ASKED ME IF THEY CAN REFORMAT THE UNIT AS TO CHECK IF THE CAMERA IS WORKING ALREADY. I said yes.
That went on and on until today, February 9, 2010. Last Saturday, my mom called them and asked if it was ready for pick-up already. They said that the battery pack came already and to my surprise, THEY ASKED MY MOM IF THEY CAN REFORMAT IT. Liars. That's what they are. They keep on procrastinating. Haven't they asked me already if they can format it a few weeks back? Obviously, since the one who asked me and the one who talked to my mom were two different people, one of them are lying.
According to them, it was the suppliers fault. (The supplier being Acer, I take it, since my laptop's brand is Acer.) However, I don't really believe that Acer would put their credibility at stake just for one laptop, right? PC corner offered me to take one of their laptops first while I am waiting for mine and that gave me a really bad feeling. It came to my mind that they probably lost my laptop and they just didn't want to say since it'll surely ruin their company's name.
My boyfriend's leaving on Wednesday and I still don't have anything to use. Our desktop's monitor broke down a few weeks ago and I am only borrowing my brother's laptop. I am thinking of getting the laptop that PC Corner was offering me just so I'll have something to use. I am hoping that once I take hold of their laptop, they'd be honest enough to let me know if they really did lose my laptop. It's not very nice for ANY company to lie to their costumers, after all.
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